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have you ever driven through
a fog so thick that you can part it
with your fingers? a fog so dense
that you stick your hand through
the car window and watch it disappear?

these special fogs press
heavy on your eyes and ears,
fill the dips of your collarbone,
quiet the murmurs living
inside your throat.

before i drove through this mountain
and through this fog there were bills
to pay and children to teach, people
i hated and people i loved. there were mental
disorders and electrocardiograms. fears.

now there is only the positioning
of my hands. a steering wheel. a whisper
in my ear that says "drive carefully."
a cliff and a guardrail.

now there is fog.

and maybe, if i wish hard enough,
the fog will keep me.

i am not afraid of dying.
i am just afraid.
tell me what your favourite book is, okay?


in other news, my facebook page has a drawing of a unicorn in a tophat. [link]
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doq-teeth Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
My favorite book? The best one I've ever read is All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven
It's so amazing and it really hits you in all the right places.
This is an amazing poem, I can't put it into words how much I enjoy your writings
BetweenTheEchoes Featured By Owner May 7, 2015
(At the moment, my favorite book is Ask the Dust by Dan Fante, with Naked Lunch by William S. Burroughs a close second.)

Personally, when dying, I walk around and around the mountain until I disappear. Only a fog can bring me back.
Kaleidoscopic365 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013

"That's as bad as killing, to take away everything a person is! September had never been betrayed before. She did not even know what to call the feeling in her chest, so bitter and sour.
Poor child. There is always a first time, and it is never the last time."


~from The Girl Who Fell Beneath Fairyland and Led the Revels There (Book #2 of the Fairyland Chronicles)
By Catherynne M. Valente

(but can we really only pick one??)

Zaadi-iman Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
The Great Gatsby is my favorite book!
Your gallery, and your writing, and just this, is so amazing. You're so honest.
edibility Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012  Hobbyist
The Perks of Being a Wallflower. You might like it.
emilyericson Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
My favorite book is To Kill a Mockingbird. Everything about the way you write takes my breath away. You inspire me. I'm afraid to post anything, but I think I just might. You are amazing.
nowmydarling Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have so many favorite books, but one that's always struck me is a children's trilogy, starting with the Hollow Kingdom. It's by Clare Dunkle. Has anyone asked you what your favorite book is yet? <3

Whenever someone asks me why I enjoy poetry, I turn them to you. I can't give you any pretty words, but know that you're my favorite. I don't know my favorite what, but you are.
estallidos Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Professional Writer
thank you, both for the compliment and the reading suggestion.

i can't remember if anyone asked me what my favorite book is. i used to just say slaughterhouse five, and while it IS one of my favorites, i have so many that it's difficult to choose.
darkpunksbabe Featured By Owner May 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
my favorite book right now would be The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
EmilySam Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
My favorite book... It probably has to be my big book of Edgar Allen Poe...
estallidos Featured By Owner May 5, 2012  Professional Writer
i love poe! i went to UVA and walked by his dorm room every day :)
EmilySam Featured By Owner May 5, 2012
Ah, that's so cool!
NazoNightDagger Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Hobbyist
Just about everything ever written by the Queen of Suspense, Mary Higgins Clark really.
latest read: The Shadow of Your Smile
FriendsWithSpiders Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand this all too well.

And my favorite book is Wolf Tower by Tanith Lee, because it made me want to write again.
estallidos Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Professional Writer
i'll add wolf tower to my list!
Yagamiseven Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2012
PartyCola Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2012
The Solitude of Prime Numbers, by Paolo Giordani. Most beautiful book I've ever read
estallidos Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Professional Writer
i will purchase this and save it for my honeymoon :heart:
TheBestNameUEverSeen Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Divergent by Veronica Roth
really powerful book, even if you don't realize the meaning of everything until you reflect upon it later
estallidos Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012  Professional Writer
i'll check this one out :)
TheBestNameUEverSeen Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I highly suggest it ^^!
fun to read despite being meaningful :)
MisfitableGrae Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012   Writer
Right now? My favorite book is called The Book Thief. Brilliant writing, and it kind of reminds me of your's: How the storyteller (Death) brings in details that don't seem important until the very end. they're also really random at points, but have meaning. And the words are beautiful: like your's. ^^
estallidos Featured By Owner Feb 29, 2012  Professional Writer
i definitely need to read that; everyone keeps talking about how excellent it is!

Ryuu-Izou Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Mystical. Honest. Amazing. :D
estallidos Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012  Professional Writer
you're far too kind in everything you say to me : )
Ryuu-Izou Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That may be, but how can I say anything but kind words, when kind words are what you deserve? :P
sapphiredragonfly Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2012
Bridge of Birds, by Barry Hughart is my favorite book. I have to stop reading your poetry now, because it's making my heart hurt, but thank you for writing it and know that you're the best I've read in a very long time.
estallidos Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2012  Professional Writer
this is one of the best compliments i have ever received.

thank you so much.
SecretSynapse Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
this is fantastic <3 as is everything you write =]

my favorite book is House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski. it's bizarre and strangely written and strangely typed and amazing. if you haven't already, please please check it out.
estallidos Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2012  Professional Writer
i have not read it, but will definitely do so. i like bizarre things :)
Ascahithiel Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My favourite book is Michael Crichton's Jurassic Park.

Also, I love your poetry! <3
estallidos Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2012  Professional Writer
i love michael crichton!

and thank you :)
xPinkTuxToTheProm Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I love your visions. that's a pretty simple statement but I do. ;p aha

I must take up on this question (which by the way, is a great idea haha). I'd have to say, it's a tie between The Little Prince and Invisible Monsters. I love Chuck Palahniuk's writing altogether actually. Also, Perks of a Wallflower came to mind immediately, and I just finished The Hunger Games and that was amaaaaazing.
estallidos Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012  Professional Writer
i like all of your book choices!

though i finally convinced my fiance to read the hunger games (or listen to it on tape, rather, as he commutes a lot) and he won't stop complaining about supposed plot holes. he says the avoxes would never work for the capital, they'd just let themselves be killed.

Gheldon Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2012
To think is to live, to think much is to live well, to think a lot.......... hurts. Once again you have made my head hurt and i thank you for it.
My favourite book is a trilogy
H. Beam Piper's Fuzzy Trilogy
estallidos Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2012  Professional Writer
i haven't heard of that trilogy before. i'll look it up right now, as i'm always searching for new books to read.

thanks for the watch, by the way. it's appreciated.
Gheldon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012
Thank you for sharing you thoughts and yourself here for all of us to enjoy.
The Piper books, especially the fuzzy books, are all sc-fi in nature but they raise some good questions as well. i enjoy all types of books, poetry, and magazines but the ones that make me think or better yet think in new ways and raise questions I hadn't thought of myself are my favorites.
Looking forward to reading all your past post and future ones as well.
brynntheredonethat Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2012
"I am not afraid of dying. I am just afraid." Chills! :D
estallidos Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2012  Professional Writer
sashathefox Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2011
my favourite book is The Garygoyle by Andrew Davidson.
This feels so different from your usual poetry
paranku-mingyuan Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Every morning at 6:30 I bike to school and often mist rises off the lake to blanket the street so I can't see more than five feet in front of me, even on days when the sun is rising. It makes the skeleton of the winter hockey rink look like a graveyard. I love the mornings. I feel safe in the fog.

My favorite books are Lamb by Christopher Moore and The Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins. I should read more classical literature, but who has the time?
BurntStrawberries Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2011
This stirs something deep inside of me. Amazing, as always.
P.S: when my copy of your book arrived I almost had a cardiac arrest- thank you for your words
keepmesafe Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011
Wuthering Heights. Because its beauty is melancholy anger.
elakziell Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2011  Professional Writer
Fantastic. Especially the ending. I also love that you write completely in lower caps. I used to do that when I wrote poetry more often.
Firalcar Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2011
A Fine and Private Place by Peter S. Beagle.

The first novel of the author, at 29. It's about a man living in a graveyard because he gets along better with the ghosts than real people, and one of the ghosts who is determined to stay. Of course there is love and loss and discovery, I find it all beautiful.
o-paque Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2011
i love this in general, and specifically this:
"i am not afraid of dying.
i am just afraid."

as for favourite books.. i have so so many
looking for alaska by john green, house of leaves by mark z. danielewski, the bell jar by sylvia plath, catcher in the rye by j.d. salinger, paper towns by john green, and lots lots more.

what about yours?
SimoneTutti Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
my favorite book is Jane Eyre :) It speaks to me every time I read it and never says the same thing twice :)
Runningfromlions-xx Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
East of Eden, definatly definatly <3
gypsyfoxdancer Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2011
I love those fogs. For me they have some strange sense of peace. Hmmmm.
little-supernova Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Walden by Thoreau, by far. For a short piece from you, this is still impeccable.
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