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there is a chinese proverb that says your teeth will fall out if you tell lies.

i used to always dream my teeth would crumble from my mouth and lay glittering on the street like coins. i used to dream that the slightest touch jarred them loose, knocked them from my jaw leaving only swells of broken tissue behind. i used to dream of rivulets of blood streaming from the corners of my mouth, of thirty two pieces of myself lying naked on the ground, thirty two tooth fairies that would never come. i used to dream of screaming.

"you know," said my psychology TA, "to dream of losing one's teeth is very common. it typically means that you're concerned about your physical appearance. it's a dream that is prevalent among many young women."

i used to dream my mom would try to kill me. i used to dream she'd push me down flights of stairs or hold a gun to my temple or run a razor lovingly along my throat. i used to dream she'd watch me drown and smile, that she would set my room on fire, would lock me up and leave me to die. i used to tell her this and she would cry.

"you know," she said to me recently, "i found out that dreaming of your mother trying to kill you just means that you're stressed about your own ability to nurture and take care of people."

i dreamt about cars more often than anything. i dreamt of being in the driver's seat and not being able to steer, of crashing into other cars and buildings and guardrails. i dreamt of vehicles without brakes, of careening off bridges, of windshield exploding inwards. i dreamt of a rain of glass and the wail of an ambulance.

"you know," my friend told me, "dreaming about not having control of a car means that you don't think you have control of your life. you don't like how things are turning out, and you don't know how to handle the traumas that life is throwing at you."

these days i mostly lie awake in bed and stare at the ceiling.
these days i can't fall asleep.
i am going through my old writing. i am also eating cake, and ate cake for breakfast and lunch.

i also have a fanpage on facebook, now: [link]

get backstage access to the utter banality that is my life, such as my MS paint drawings and the aforementioned overshare about cake.

i will probably also post stuff about my writing projects, if you find that more interesting than cake for whatever odd reason.
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Zuzmy Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2013  Student
Wow, insanely brilliant work. I really like it. Its so well-written.
nixxohplease Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ohmygod I love your writing so much. i love dA. i love writing. so many feels. <3
estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012  Professional Writer
i can lose a day easily on devianart :)
ragnaice Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hmm, I just can't tell if the dreams or reality is more stressful here....
xlntwtch Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012   Writer
:iconcongratssignplz: ...on the DLD Pick of the Day! Wonderful work, written so very well. Thank you. :+fav:
DailyLitDeviations Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012
Your wonderful literary work has been chosen to be featured by DailyLitDeviations and has been selected as our "Pick of the Day". It is featured in a news article here: [link] and on our main page.

Keep writing and keep creating.
Mr-Black-Bird Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2012
God, every time I read this I love it more and more. My goal in writing has always been to write something true, something poignant and beautiful in it's poignancy. You manage to do this time and time again, I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little envious.

PS: I cant seem to sleep either, but when I do I don't dream anymore.
darkpunksbabe Featured By Owner May 26, 2012
I often dream my teeth are falling out also... It always feels so real too, I actually have to check my mouth in the morning ><

I also dream, not that I'm flying, but more like walking on cushions of air... like a staircase and platforms in the sky, but they're invisible, and there's a trick to getting on them, and I can only remember it when I'm alseep, but it feels so real, I still find myself trying to remember the trick of it in real life. I'm sure I'll get it someday.

and then lastly I have dreams I never remember, until they happen... those scare me the most...
E-raserhead Featured By Owner May 17, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful work, by the way!
estallidos Featured By Owner May 20, 2012  Professional Writer
i'm glad you liked it! thank you for the favorites :)
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