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one crow sorrow
two crows joy
three crows a wedding
four crows a boy
five crows silver
six crows gold
seven crows a secret
that has never been told.

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i suppose my secret is that i never told him that he is a blackbird.

he is all sleep-crooked eyelashes, dark and glossy, and his wingspan
is over seven feet long which seems big enough to pull down the sky.
i could tell him about birds as cliche symbols but his mouth is forceful,
his body is warm and needy and there is no room for literature in bed.
my hands flutter needlessly against his shoulders and i hope
i am a bird of paradise but in truth i am no bird at all.
i guess my secret could also be that i want to marry him
and bind his jagged elbows tight and teach him about earthly things
like poetry and not making me cry. he will fuck up, i know this.
he has before. when it happens again i will sob about useless symbolism
and nursery rhymes and maybe he will remind me "two crows joy."
this is supposed to be where i write about loving things and setting
them free but he isn't a dove and i am not a selfless person.
i am harsh and needy and it is never enough.

blackbirds are supposed to be intelligent but i'm pretty sure
they still fall in love with useless girls who are no good for them.
they clutter my backyard even when i scream
at them to go, that i have nothing left to give them.

the leaves have fallen and the pretty things are beginning to fly south
but he is still here folded into me, a blackbird on a naked bough.

i cling to him fearfully and wonder when instinct
will tell him to fly away. he cannot brave this cold.
wallace stevens wrote a poem called "thirteen ways of looking at a blackbird" and i wanted to write my own. i wrote this before aaron proposed.

the intro (one crow sorrow) is an old folk/nursery rhyme.

my book is out!

-buy a personalized paperback here: [link]
-see a preview and buy a normal paperback or ebook here: [link]

<3
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FriendsWithSpiders Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I think this one so far is my favorite. <3
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estallidos Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Professional Writer
i like this one too, but as the author i am rather biased.
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7outerelements Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
"Thirteen ways" is a beautiful set of poems. One of the first I read and truly enjoyed. It's all the better for having helped inspire this.
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lances-wings Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2012  Hobbyist
"his mouth is forceful, his body is warm and needy and there is no room for literature in bed."... This is so true. This phrase has stuck with me ever since I read this 6 months ago.
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estallidos Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2012  Professional Writer
thank you for this comment. i'm so glad that i can write things that stay with people, as that's my goal for everything i do.
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whenyoumessup Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2011  Hobbyist
the name Jonas means dove.
knowing that, this piece makes more sense to me than you know.
thank you.
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AVolatileCalm Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2011
Really love this part:
"this is supposed to be where i write about loving things and setting
them free but he isn't a dove and i am not a selfless person.
i am harsh and needy and it is never enough."


and the ending is just brilliant.
very heartfelt, with a sad touch - but not enough to weigh heavy.
I like it :)
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Mythologique Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2011
thank you for verbalizing something i've been trying to explain to my love for ages. i sent it to him and he understood right away.
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mjtfreeze Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2011
The last stanza about his instinct and ur fear of him leaving...is pure gold.
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the-left-out-penguin Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2011
you always find a way to make me cry :heart:
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madamscience Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2011  Student
this poem is EXACTLY what love feels like in my mind. it is so beautiful and completely true and moving and I really really love it lots.

crows are such beautiful smart birds
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kordslip Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2011
I am in love with all of your writing <3
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lilykat14 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2011
I am in love with the way your poetry makes me feel things.
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peopledrawer Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011
this is supposed to be where i write about loving things and setting
them free but he isn't a dove and i am not a selfless person.

i like that line.
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dygariad Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
so, so, so, beautiful. as always.
putting the order in for your book very soon! and am VERRRY excited. :)
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Cooro-76 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2011
"this is supposed to be where i write about loving things and setting
them free but he isn't a dove and i am not a selfless person.
i am harsh and needy and it is never enough."


I don't know why, but I found myself reading this line over and over and over...
This is beautiful (:
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stormclouds-gather Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011
Ohhhh. This is so beautiful. It just reached out and kissed my heart.
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bleedngfr-thwrngteam Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2011
This is full of perfect, relevant things about love and boys who might as well be blackbirds. I wish I could've said it myself. <3
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cobrastarfan123 Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2011
<3
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Scout73 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2011  Student Writer
Though this is somewhat irrelavent, I thought you might be interested to know that Counting Crows (guess why) use the nursery rhyme in the beginning of your piece in the song "A Murder of One".
Done being random now...
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fibreopticfireflies Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2011
:dummy: fav'd!
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irr3l3vant Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2011
Wow lovely poem :D
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Anna-Anonymous Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010
he proposed? congratulations.. and your book must be amazing.
(also, my heart hurts. what should i do)
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shadow-crow Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's so nice that now you have made a book!
Keep going!
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Midnight-Armonia Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
ffff i stalk your dA, how have i not seen this yet. D:
for some reason i love the phrase "sleep-crooked eyelashes." also "big enough to pull down the sky."

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ijustdroppedmybrain Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010
I love it! Though i found the intro weird cause ive always known that as being about magpies 'one for sorrow, two for joy, three for a girl, four for a boy..' though...
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bizzziecee Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
this is exactly what im thinking about. you have the perfect way of putting things on a page. beautiful.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2010  Student Writer
"his body is warm and needy and there is no room for literature in bed." :heart:
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fossilfuels Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2010   Writer
wow, this is amazing. beautiful beautiful beautiful.
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DesperateMe Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ours is about magpies,
One for sorrow
Two for Joy
three for a girl
four for a boy
five for silver
six for gold
seven for a secret, never to be told
eight for a kiss
nine for a wish...
The tenth never makes any sense!
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Chuckless Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010
It's truly wonderful that your book is out. Keepsakes from wonderful authors and musicians I've come across on the net are without a shadow of a doubt the best keepsakes around. :)

And congratulations on the engagment. :D
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010  Professional Writer
thank you so much! i'm so incredibly thankful that this whole process is finished.

and also my thanks for the engagement congrats <3
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Solaces Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010
It's now official.
I shouldn't be allowed to write about birds anymore.
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DamagedHomewrecker Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL

i love crows, as a sidenote

but this is amazing. i love the emotion, the imagery, the structure. i loooooove this.
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010  Professional Writer
i rather love them too. thanks for the kind words :)
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xglassgalaxyx Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2010
again you make me cry. you have beautiful words
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Silent-Lulliby Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2010  Student Writer
this is gorgeous :heart:
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2010  Professional Writer
<3
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VintageStar Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2010
"i am harsh and needy and it is never enough."

it never is, is it? you are such an inspiration, but sadly i can't write anymore. but thanks for reminding me of how it feels to be ...myself.
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plutosub Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2010
So pretty. You never disappoint me. I must say, you are my inspiration.
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2010  Professional Writer
merci beaucoup, my dear <3
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koeltje Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2010  Professional Photographer
This is so beautiful. I'm trying to find a favorite line but it's all so good...
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:iconestallidos:
estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2010  Professional Writer
you're far too sweet :)
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tragicvista Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I love that Wallace Stevens poem.
And I love this pretty madly.

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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Professional Writer
thanks much for the kind words, my friend!
and stevens is a bamf :)
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UltimateSketchQueen Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Bah!

Your writing is so inspiring!

I've never thought of myself as the literary type, but reading your pieces always makes me want to write about how I feel and stuff...
Maybe I'll just keep the words etched into my heart
<3
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Professional Writer
please do! the world always needs more writers <3
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KearaClearwater Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I'm ordering my personal copy as I type this. I can't wait to get it,a nd have beautiful words like this on paper to show off.

I think my personal note will quite possibly be my favorite thing you've written. :heart:
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estallidos Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Professional Writer
hey gorgeous! i'd absolutely love to write you a note. you've been supporting me and saying nice things to me for so long that i'd like to say nice things to you, took. IN SPARKLY PEN!

also i checked my transaction page and am not seeing you on it? sometimes they take awhile to show up, though.
if you decided not to get one, ignore me. i'm just super paranoid because my friend thought she was getting a personalized copy and accidentally clicked the regular link, so i've been trying to match people up.

again, if you decided not to get one, no worries and ignore meeeeeeee.
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KearaClearwater Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I'm trying I have to refresh it, I think. It's been processing since...well since I wrote that comment.

UPDATE:

It finally worked!!
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